Music IX

Okay. So.

Whoah there. Flashback to middle school.

Anyways. It's been a while since I've blogged about music so I guess this is good. :) So the other day (like maybe two weeks ago) I learned about this one game called "osu!" which looks mega fun and awesome and pretty and AMAZING. It's a little like Tap Tap Revenge but not. 'Cause like, theres the whole "tap and occasionally hold to the rhythm" thing, but with osu!, there's also the factor that you have to DRAG the dots too. According to Matthew, one of the kids I'm babysitting, it's a little like the piano game by smule. I've seen it played on the easier levels so I'm not sure how accurate this comparison it, but I'll add a video of osu! in here because everyone should get it 'cause it looks beautifully amazingly fun. <3 

(Note: I still haven't gotten the app because my mom hasn't discussed downloading it with my dad. sigh)

BUT I WANT THIS GAME SO BAD!

vvvvvv Vids below vvvvvv

Power VI

In this world, we have the power to make every single decision in our life ourselves. (But, only after you've grown up and left your family's home. Before then you only make some of those decisions.) Anyways, people are always making decisions and making the smart decisions for little tasks comes easily. Plus, it makes more sense.

However, I get bored easily. So I tend to not appear as smart. (Just kidding. I'm not smart at all.) Sometimes, I make tasks harder on myself just to challenge myself and give myself a headache.

I'm an idiot.

But that's usually okay.

Anyways, today I got home, opened my laptop, logged on and opened all the tabs necessary for the completion of my homework. I didn't start homework until my loud, annoying, and crazy brothers got home from school, and spent the time between their arrival and the time I got home searching up YouTube videos and chatting.

Maybe I do need help...

So yeah. This happens most days, too. I'm pretty sure I know this is a dumb habit and makes my life more stressful what with having to do serious work while Milan is acting off across the table from me, desperately striving to steal my attention. However, I feel as if doing these kind of dumb "excursive", if you will, helps me learn to do well with or without very load and distracting background noise. In fact, I realized the other day, that between me and my brother, I complain less about the noise level in our house than he does.

Or maybe I have hearing problems. Who knows.

:3

OHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! Before I end this post I figured I'd share these two videos with you guys 'cause I found this one english cover to a Vocaloid song and was like WOW IT ACTUALLY MAKES SENSE!!! I so proud :)

vvv WITHOUT SUBS vvv

vvv WITH SUBS vvv

Sorry I couldn't put the video in the post :(

vvv THIS ONES THE COVER vvv

Procrastinators, UNITE

UWAAAAAAAAAAH!! I almost forgot to post something today! (Whoops) so since I don't actually have anything interesting to blog about I'll just give you all a basic summary of my day.

A SUNDAY IN THE LIFE OF THE (future) EMPRESS OF THE UNIVERSE

So I woke up insanely early as per usual due to my very annoying and unnecessary alarms. (Why have I not gotten rid of them yet??) Then, of course, I fall back to sleep immediately because my bed is soft and warm and cozy. But then I realized we were going to go skiing so I forced my self out of bed and ran around the house frantically looking for my good socks before realizing I put them by my bed the night before. I got ready with the hour and waited another two hours for us to leave when, WHOOPDEEDOO!! Change in plans! We weren't going skiing. So I grabbed my sketch pad and started doodling nonsense and some of the stuff I got out of it was pretty satisfactory. Maybe I'll put pics in another post. Hmm. So after that, I fed the boys food (I think. They might have served themselves) and we all ate lunch. The. The boys went with my dad for a run/walk thing at hartshorn and I stayed home and sketched some more. I got bored of that after a hour (I think) and so I found some manga and started reading. I pretty much switched back and forth between reading and drawing and eating all afternoon. And the. We went swimming for a while (ugh) and then I had dinner, read more manga, and was about to go to sleep when ....

UWAAAAAAAAAAH!! I almost forgot to post something today! (Whoops) so since I don't actually have anything interesting to blog about I just gave you all a basic summary of my day. 

Tired VII

I haven't been at all creative lately. My mind has been this blank slate that u can't write on. It's like it's surface is too seamlessly smooth that nothing of substance sticks to it, or maybe it's made of a very still liquid that only looks solid, but it isn't and I can't figure out why my ideas just keeping sinking and/or dissolving in it. Sigh. I'm not even gonna pre read that sentence. SCREW GRAMMATICAL ERRORS! MY BRAIN IS FRIED.

I want food. But I already ate. I'd love a lollipop though. A cherry tootsie roll pop. Mmmmm.

Sigh. I've been spouting random song lyrics in all sorts of languages and genres all night. I'm so tired. It's ridiculous. 

I've been so uncreative and tired that all I've been thinking are dumb, dark, and clichéd thoughts and those thoughts just keep on going and going and shuffling and repeating like some stupid playlist some kid made to annoy me. I just want to stop thinking and sleep but at the same time I don't want to sleep. I want to eat but I don't want to eat. I want company, but I like the peace and quiet.

WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME??? WHY AM I CONTRADICTING MYSELF??? WHERE IS MAYA WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING AND IS SURE OF EVERYTHING SHE DOES??? WHERE??????

Oh right, she never existed

I think I'll go to bed now and think about not thinking. 

>.<

I can't think so I guess I'll just rant

Why do humans sit in chairs?

I mean really? Trust me on this, but an hour of sitting on a chair is five times less comfortable than two hours of sitting on the floor. Like for real. I mean, you can't exactly write or do work when you're sitting on the ground, so I guess you could stand and the world could make taller tables or something, but that would be too much trouble. They could also just make shorter tables but that's just as much trouble. So i guess chairs aren;t that bad, just as long as you don't have to sit in one for more than an hour.

Why do we sit so much at school anyway?? We shouldn't be sitting in a classroom all day. We should be doing stuff, doing activities or something. And I mean, those could be educational too if you really tried. Or the activities and stuff don't have to be educational. I guess it's up to the teacher. Meh.

Ow. Owowowowowowowowowowow. I have an eyelash in my eye and it hurrrrrrtttttssssssss.

It's out. Still hurts.

Don't read that out of context 'cause it sounds weird

Hm. The art in anime and manga is a little strange. If you look at like DC Comics or like Marvel artwork, the people all look very human, or close enough. If you compared the muscle structure and skeletal framework proportions of the characters in those books and the drawings in a human anatomy book, you'd be able to find loads and loads and loads of similarities. But not always with anime. It's like, instead of drawing what is actually there, manga artists draw what they actually see. If they see the biceps, they draw in the biceps. If they see pretty eyes, they draw pretty eyes. If they see spiky hair, they draw spiky hair. And if they don't notice it, then they don't draw it. Instead of trying to keep their illustrations perfectly realistic, they try to make it recognizable. Does that make any sense???

Merp. Just finished dinner (and dessert) and am cold because eating klondike bars with only a tank top on next to a drafty window is dumb.

I wonder why that window is drafty though. It's not like there are any real cracks. Maybe it's just the cold emanating off the glass into our warm house or something.

OH PUMPKIN PIE! Damn I can't have any more dessert.

Hm... I should probably do something more productive.....

Yea, no. Screw that.

I'm going back to YouTube. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Open Minds and Not So Strange Ideas

I don't understand why so many people in this world 
this country 
this school 
this place
here, live their lives with such a closed mind frame. What's wrong with my ideas and thoughts? What makes them so "gross" and "weird" in the first place? And just 'cause I tell a small group of people, why does the it feel like the entire world has the sudden urge to listen in and judge me?????? 

Stop judging me. Your imagination is just as weird. At least I take pride in my own thoughts.

Cross dressing, shipping homosexual couples, cosplaying. How is it any different from dressing up, shipping heterosexual couples, or play acting?? People do all of those activities for fun, and nearly no people think of them as "weird". Yet when someone exclaims "OH, I totes ship HIM and HIM" instead of "HIM and HER" then everyone goes all, "Oh, you're so weird," and, "stop being creepy." Or when I compliment someone on having a nice, almost androgynous body frame, and say that they would also look good if they cross dressed, everyone else is like, "stop insulting them," even when I WASN'T.

I wish people would open their minds a little and realize how bigoted they sounded. It's just mean, and it makes me sad (for lack of a better adjective) when people think it's "weird" or "gross". 

Because it's not.

It really isn't.

I don't know why, but things like this, small insignificant comments like this, they really piss me off ('scuse my language for any of you more sensitive readers). Like really?? What exactly is so weird or gross or strange about the things I discuss amongst my friends (and sometimes family)? If the people who make such comments really went back and thought about it, the most they might say is "Oh, 'cause, idk, it just is," and then expect me to be fine and accepting of that answer. Well guess what. 

I WON'T ACCEPT THAT ANSWER!

I won't accept it anymore than you accept my views and others habits. I won't accept it anymore than you accept others. THIS IS THE TWENTY FIRST CENTURY PEOPLE. THIS IS ALSO AMERICA. PLEASE GET OVER YOURSELVES AND UNDERSTAND THAT BEING DIFFERENT FROM YOU IS NOT A BAD THING!! THANK YOU. GOOD NIGHT. 



storms over to couch fuming before opening laptop to look up anime...

Reading V

I don't think I have had time for any leisure reading in the past three months. 'Tis very sad. I miss books. SO I went to the library yesterday (GASP!)

I know. Shocker right?

Okay, so yesterday, as per usual, I got home from school, as per usual, went to the side door, as per usual, and attempted get in the house so I could take a nap and eat good food, as per usu---- Yeah, no. I'll stop that. I'm pretty sure you get the point.

However I discovered that getting into a locked house is very difficult when one has left their house key in said house, and is lacking in proper adequate lock picking devices. (Note: I don't wear hair pins, bobby pins, or clips, or carry around a credit card or ID of similar material. Nor did I carry sewing materials with me that day, not that I ever do, or any sort of metal or other hard material bar.)

And so I was stuck outside for the first time in ages, but it was okay because yesterday was really pretty and warm. So, I decided to visit the library.

And conveniently forgot my library card in my bag on the front porch.

Well, WHOOPDEEDOO aren't I the genius. AND THEN, I went to go pick my little brothers up from school, came all the way back home, was prepared to walk right back over to the library WITH MY CARD THIS TIME to check out some books I saw that looked pretty interesting when BA BAM!! Time fricking SLAPS ME IN THE FACE and says "OH LOOK! BOO HOO! LIBRARY CLOSES IN TWELVE MINUTES!"

Time. Go die please. It takes fifteen minutes to walk to the library. Five on a bike. But then I'd have to fill my wheels with air and ain't nobody got time for that. Well, at least I didn't. I'm weak and it takes ten minutes to pump both of my wheels. I cried. Not really. Just figuratively.

I guess none of this really matters though, and you just read this whole post for nothing, because in the end, I got my books after school today and all of the house chores were completed perfectly and everything was good in the world.

Or maybe there is some immensely amazing and huge meaning behind this story that some psychologist or the other will find one day when I'm dead and famous and then spread this post to all the little textbook making copies that force little children to read bland and boring stories about dogs who talk, and my post from freshmen year will be the most interesting thing in it...

Hey, you never know. Stranger things have happened.

*flops arm in rainbow*

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PS- If you are some random psychologist who just happens to find some deeper meaning in my writing, feel free to send it to multiple publishing companies along with all of your notes and ideas about my supposed ideas. Then we'll both be famous. Thanks.

Power V Tired VI

Not having power, or control over things is very uncomfortable. Like dealing with people can be very uncomfortable if you have a hard time predicting them. Or, like, my intelligence. Sometimes it's perfectly accurate and other times it's completely wrong. Or creativity. Dealing with one's own creativity is easy. You always have control over what you think. But when you have to be subjected to someone else creativity, it get's uncomfortable really fast.

Especially when you find yourself standing with your back to a canvas, watching as your friends take aim as they prepare to fling paint filled water balloons at your person.

This has never happened to me ever. I have no experience with this whatsoever. In fact, I'm pretty sure this has never happened to anyone I know. I'm just talking possibilities here.

But -PSYCHE- this post has nothing to do with that. In fact, I wasn't even gonna do a post on power. Actually I was, but I don't have much to write. Actually that's a lie. I have lots to write about. I just don't wanna post it here. Sigh.

I feel sick and my allergies are killing me, which sucks 'cause it's so nice out.

I miss the winter air.

Can't summer get here faster?

Why do trees have pollen, and why must I be affected?

TREES! GET IT STRAIGHT! MY NOSE DOES NOT WANT TO MATE WITH YOU!

I'm tired.

Gnite~

Anime IV

Okay. So, in case you didn't realize, anime is one of my greatest passions. Maybe more than seventeen million, billion times better than the american "cartoons" they have on, like, cartoon network and stuff, anime is real art. Well, those cartoons are art to, but anime has it's own level.

In case you really live under a rock or something (or just have no interest in this kind of thing, whatsoever) you should know that people who are extremely passionate about anime call themselves otakus.

There are many, many, many types of otakus. There are cosplay otakus, gamer otakus, idol JPop otakus, train otakus (I know, it sounds crazy), figurine otakus, robot otakus, pasocon otakus (computer geeks, basically), the wapanese (japanese wannabes) and more.

However, I consider myself an anime otaku for the most part. JRock is awesome, and cosplay can be fun (in my room, by myself, with no one there to see), but anime and manga are definitely the top of my list of obsessions. Besides eating, of course. But that's a necessity so I put it on a separate list (along with sleep).

Within the rather large umbrella of Anime/Manga Otaku, there are even MORE types.

I am friends with many.

I mean there are the closet otakus and the lolicons (cough cough you know who you are) and others. Some otakus like hentai (>.<), yaoi, yuri, those really creepy fangirly romance shoujo otakus, slice of life otakus (meh), the ones who only watch, like, shonnen, the white otakus who think watching Naruto makes them a full out geek, and then a bunch of others I am most definitely forgetting. Anyways, there are loads, but most of us (note: the word "most" is important in that sentence) are perfectly healthy, functioning, human beings with friends, a decent social life, okay grades, and family relationships to die for (that last one might be a lie). SO, basically, don't judge someone for liking anime. It makes me want to judge you for judging them you judging judger who has nothing better to to do with their life so they make unfair judgements about people who don't deserve to be judged by the likes of you. I judge you.

Saying the word "judge" feels weird now....

But that's besides the point. So really, if you like anime you should be proud. If you don't, I mean, that's great and all, but don't try converting people for your sake. I'm not really sure why I wrote this post. I guess I was really in the mood to rant. Or just felt like I had to speak on behalf of all of my meek otaku friends who stopped watching anime because their brothers said that anime was "gay".

Thank you.



PS- if you suddenly feel the urge to start watching anime, just comment and I might try to give you a recommendation based on your interests. Also, use kissanime.com if you can't find the episodes on youtube, because that website is awesome!!!!!!!!! (trust me I would know. it's the best one I found, AND it streams to mobile devices. WHOOP WHOOP)

Oyasumi~

Procrastination, Chinese Take Out, and the Art of (insert cool word here)

So, I have done absolutely NOTHING all day today (minus work from 4:30 to 8:30) and still have this post and maybe, oh, I dunno, seven bio objectives left. That's the same amount of homework I left unfinished at the beginning of my weekend (minus yesterday's post obviously). So here I am completely brain dead, try to think of something to write will simultaneously chugging down hot and sour soup and mixing left over brown sauce (which was on the bottom of the container) with some white rice I found in our fridge maybe two seconds ago.

And then a very kind friend of mine sent me this:

Screw work. Screw dinner. I think I'll waste the next hour of my life for fun.

JK because obviously here I am writing this post, but I figured I might as well include that video there in case some of you would like to waste your lives with me. 

SO I still have some work to do and food to eat and brothers to yell at, but after I post this, there is one thing I absolutley must do.

WATCH EPISODE TEN OF NORAGAMI WHICH CAME OUT TODAY BECAUSE NORAGAMI IS THE BEST ANIME EVER (ever... ever...... ever.........ever.............)

Thank you.

I will also include an old poem of mine that I found yesterday. I wrote it maybe, oh, only two or three years ago. But I kinda liked it so I might as well share. 

NOTE: It doesn't have a title and never will, if only because I'm too lazy to think of one.

when your picture perfect world collapses

stained glass breaks, the music scratches

the way you see things starts to change

and the whole picture gets rearranged

suddenly it all is clear

and then you know the end is near

what once was true and pure and right

is suddenly burned by heavenly light

the ground on which you stand shakes strongly

the sirens in your mind ring soundly

the entire universe in chaos and despair

you shield your heart. Prove that you don't care

Thank you again. I know, I'm such a bright and cheery girl aren't I? ( >^_^ )> *hug* *snuggle*

I will also insert a couple of cool words I learned over the course of the past month that I never knew existed before.

ACTUALLY I take that back because I just realized I accidentally deleted it when trying to steal my phone back from my friends, who were mad at me for reading cute Rin x Haru doujinshis at breakfast. (NOTE: said doujinshis were NOT, I repeat, NOT R18. Don't jump to conclusions and judge me thanks.)

Anyways, I'm tired of waiting and really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really wanna see episode ten so....

JA NE <3