I'M IN A GOOD MOOD AGAIN!!

LOOK AT THIS VID. GO TO 3:27!!!

GYAAAH IM IN LOVE!! I LOVE JACK FROST!! I WANT TO BE ELSA!! GYAAAAAH

Sorry

I'm a sucky blogger huh. I've been so busy lately though. I FINALLY CLEANED OUT MY ROOM kind of. 

It looks a lot better anyways. :3

Also, I've been listenning to this one song on repeat all day for the past few days and I'm still not tired of it. I swear though, the first verse? Perfection.

Like SERIOUSLY?! It's been practically haunting me. Like look at this vvv I just keep wasting my free time doing all the wrong things, huh? XP

OH! And speaking of free time look at this one. I swear I've been making bubbles everywhere. In geometry I filled the whole back side of a page with them. Bartlett wasn't very happy though (~_~;;) 

OH OH OH!! Another good song I've been listening to very often lately is this one vvv

Okay nevermind. I'm not actually in that great of a mood so I'll end it here. I promise to be a better blogger tomorrow. I promise to stay true to my word. I promise not to break any promises. I promise to enjoy my spring break. I promise to not miss any homework due after spring break. I promise to be a good girl. Wait no. Take the last one back. Everything else still stands though. Gnite.

Music XII =_= and Anime VI

I apologize for the excessive music posts, but I really have nothing better to blog about. I seriously just downloaded ten songs and wasted a bunch of time that could have been used to clean my room. Like I'd actually get much done if I had cleaned my room, but that's besides the point.

I think I should sleep now.

I don't think I want to.

OH-- SO I'm already really far into it, but Hyouka is AMAZING!! I mean, I've been meaning to watch it, but never got around to it, but I finally did and now I'm addicted.

I ship Houtarou and Chitanda so hard it's ridiculous.

Well I will go back to my episode before going to bed.

Gnite~

Maya Problems

I just wrote a really great rant about a lot of awesome stuff and deleted the whole thing so now I'm super mega pissed but I'll just paraphrase my wonderful five paragraph essay for now.

What the hell is wrong with "gay" things and when did gay and cross dresser come to be synonymous? THAT MAKES NO SENSE!

Also, what right do you have to judge me and the. Try to force your judgment of me ONTO me?? You think I'm gay? Great. Go suck my --- BEEP BEEP BEEP. I could care less whether or not you're unsure of my sexual orientation. I'm not and that's all that matters.

Also, am I normal? No. Yes. Probably. What the heck is normal anyway? Depends on the person? Well the person is me so I say there is no normal. Just fifty shades of weird.

Also, if you want me to change my views, don't keep coming at me with the same "I'm right. I'm right. I'm right" attitude. That makes you boring. I hate boring. You will be ditched. But f you want to have a very interesting debate on these things with me be my guest. If I have free time I might not mind giving you some of my attention.

So basically, if I'm pissed don't bother me. Even if I'm joking and look perfectly composed, if my eyes aren't smiling a little, it's cause I'm not currently thinking in this dimension or I'm pissed as f***.

Thank you. Good night.

MY COMPUTER HATES ME!!

I now realize that I cannot blog from my phone on safari.

After the last two posts (which I truly though had been posted when I SAID POST!) I realized that mobile safari will never be as amazing as chrome on desktop, and after having to RESCHEDULE BOTH POSTS BEFORE POSTING THEM just now I decided to make a vow.

I HEREBY DECLARE TO NEVER HALF ASS MY BLOGGING BY TRYING TO POST WHILE LYING COMFY IN BED INSTEAD OF SITTING IN A CHAIR WITH MY LAPTOP ON!

It's okay if that didn't make sense, but if it did then YAY ME.

Aight. FOUR MORE OBJECTIVES!! BAI!!

Food

I realize that food is a large part of my life so for the first time in history (or so it feels) I will blog about my favorite topic.

Dinner.

I think I'm in love with dinner. I nearly never eat breakfast, and if I do it's just ramen or grits that's gone within minutes, and as for lunch... I tend to forget it at home and even on weekends I'm always doing something around lunch time so sometimes I just skip. In fact, on days that I'm not at school I don't ever keep track of time, so I've learned to just eat when I feel hungry even though the timing varies A LOT. (Disclaimer: This is a habit my dad abhors. Both of my parents are against my skipping meals and eating brunch and linner instead. Neither of them approve my strange eating habits.) HOWEVER! There is one meal that I eat on a regular basis and in regular amounts.

Dinner.

Every night around 10pm usually, sometimes later sometimes earlier depending on when my mom cooks and when I get home, I eat about two to three quarts of food. That's two big plates OR one plate and two bowls OR three bowls and a drink/snack OR a bunch of apples and clementines paired with whatever food I bring home from work OR.... Yeah you get the gist.

But tonight I had a feast.

One quart of white rice with a quart of Mapo Tofu and a quart of egg drop soup as well as a full quart of what I think was pork lo mien (I'm not sure if it was that or a mixed lo mien made from extras... whatever). SO basically, if you took all the food I just ate then mashed it up and turned it into a smoothie, I just consumed a gallons worth of chinese food smoothie.

Please take your time I you process this in awe.

Now add in the fact that I ate all of that within an hour and a half while using only one hand as I continued working on my unfinished bio objectives with the other.

Thank you for your time.

I will now try to settle my lurching stomach before going to bed. (~__~'')

The Problem With Being Female

Contrary to popular belief, the biggest problem with being a girl is NOT our monthly present from mother nature. It is in fact our natural tendency to over analyze everything. In fact, I'm only a little bit envious of males if only for their naturally simple minded thoughts.

You can take that as a compliment or insult. Up to you.

But really. It's absolutely amazing. Girls can spend up to hours, possibly days, trying to understand why a certain person didn't say "HI" to them that morning or smile at them at lunch or something else just as trivial, while guys won't even think about it. If asked they'll probably say something like "Oh they were probably tired," or "Maybe they didn't see me," or "Maybe their busy," or something just as plausible and obvious. It's truly admirable to some extent at least.

Well, going back on that, I'm not entirely sure that all males think in this way, but I can say for sure that almost every female in existence overanalyzes everything, so in comparison to female, males do think rather simply.

I'm not quite sure why I wrote this. I'm not quite sure if I'll post this. Yeah... No, I'll post this because nothing interesting happened today. Merp.

~Gnite...

Power VIII

You know something?

I think I'm too easily influenced.

Not by people. Lol obviously not. I've just been thinking... my emotions sway so easily. Like take today for instance. We went to go see one of my best friend's plays. It was the opening night for their school's performance of 42nd St and it was amazing. The sets were great, the costumes were amazing, and of course the acting was up to it's usual high standards for RBR, but afterwards, I couldn't help but feel a little....

Melancholy.

I felt wistful and weird and not like me at all. I couldn't help thinking, that could have been me. I used to act, and dance, and sing, and do sets, and did crew. I did everything. I loved shows. The stage. Lights. Applause. I lived for it for the longest time.

And then I just dropped it.

I don't even know what triggers these sudden changes in my mood. I was supposed to be happy for Ash for crying out loud!! I was supposed to give her a huge hug and congratulate her and smile. But I couldn't stop thinking about how much I missed the stage.

I don't even know at this point.

Sigh. Now I'm just tired. I hate talking about my feelings. But I need to get a new journal to write shtuff in so ima just vent here for today. >_<

Gnite~

Love V

Sometimes I think I'm in love.

I always had crushes as a kid. This character. That classmate. Some kid I met on the mountain last December. I crushed on anyone and everyone who caught my interest. It was natural. Normal. And of course there were the few crushes that lasted years and then some that lasted minutes, but I was used to having feelings like these. Wavering and unstable, yet never unsure until after the fact. I was content with being able to crush on people from afar. I never even wanted more, so I told myself.

But nowadays? I think I might be in love.

In fact, I've been thinking seriously about this for awhile and I realized that the easiest thing to do in the situation, in fact the only thing expected in a situation like this from a girl with as much "spunk" as I have, would be to go ahead and "confess" (I apologize for sounding dramatic, but I really have no other way to word it).

However, the world isn't as simple as that. It would be different if he was just some upperclassman who I admired and found attractive, but I consider the relationship we have now to be friendship, and I would really hate to put that in jeopardy. I am comfortable with what we share now. In fact, a large part of me wants things to stay this way. But deep down inside me there's another voice, saying I deserve more. I should try for more. I want more. This annoying and pushy voice is at persistent as I can be, and no matter how much I muffle it, it just won't shut up. So after much consideration I have decided.

I will stop fantasizing about a new boy every week and focus entirely on my one true love, until I work up the courage to tell them my feelings and prepare my heart and mind for the wors---

PFFT. YEAH, AS IF!! LOL IM DYING. IF YOU ACTUALLY BELIEVED THAT BULL, SHAME ON YOU! XD XD XD XD AS IF MY LIFE IS THAT CHEESY LOLLLLLL. I CRACK MYSELF UP!

And that is my belated April Fools Day gift to you.

Gnite you guys~

Favorites VI

やっぱり(yappari), winter is now officially my favorite season. 

The bugs are back.

I mean, really, what is the point of a mosquitos existence? Is there even a reason behind there existence?? NO. THERE IS NONE! NONE. ないよ (nai yo)! Sigh. I really hate those bugs. I go out for two seconds to take out the trash, and on my way back in I leave the door open maybe two seconds longer than usual because of a gust of wind, and where does that land me?? WITH A BUNCH OF ANNOYING BLOODSUCKING STOWAWAY PARASITES WHO MAKE ME ITCH LIKE CRAZY!

I swear. Every few seconds I have to smack my arm where it itches to keep from scratching. ずるい(zurui)!

Maybe I should go around tomorrow and douse the house with bug repellent. I wonder if Mama will let me...

Lol like that would happen.

Ahh~ Stupid spring. Mosquitos should just die off already. 

Also I gave in awhile ago and started scratching. My arm is covered in red lines...

AHH THEY'RE SO FRICKING ANNOYING!