Fire

SO I lied about the blogging thing. I missed a couple days already. Whoops. However I'm blogging today so I hope I can make up for what I missed.

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So today, I set the microwave on fire.

You know how everyone's always saying don't put utensils and stuff in the microwave? Well I forgot the rule about not putting metal or plastics in there and went ahead and heated up chinese takeout leftovers while they were still in the take out box.

The metal heated super fast, setting fire to the paper box, thus thoroughly crisping the edges of my sweet and sour chicken. Milan freaked out and yelled at me about a fire and I was about to brush him off 'cause he's always crying wolf, but then his face was really serious so I got up and took a look.

We ended up (well mostly me) putting out the fire with my mother's, then cold, barley tea. (Thanks Mama)

With my house almost meeting its burning demise and my sweet and sour chicken nearly entirely inedible, the saddest part to my story is the fact that this was probably the most adrenaline spiking event of my summer so far. And I still haven't started my homework.

Ugh I'm bored. Someone save me.

Boobs

So today, I learned that my boobs are soft like pillows.

That's a really weird way to start a post, I know, but that's actually what happened. So I've been chilling in a sports bra and doing chores and stuff like a good daughter or whatever with the AC running and stuff. And I mean, I don't like it when it gets too cold, so I cross my arms and curl up to warm up a little, and then all of a sudden there are these two soft and fluffy things under my chin. Like WHAT THE HECK!! How did I not know up till now that the two small sacks of fat stuck to my chest were actually really soft cloud pillows? HOW??

This incident resulted in me being much more pleased with my boobs. Despite being small they are still soft and fluffy. They are solid proof that this world has some hope, and that the impossible CAN be made possible. Even if this only goes for insignificant things like the softness of my boobs. 

So this got me thinking about boobs and sizes of boobs and stuff and what not and it got me thinking. What decides the size of our boobs? I get that theres got to be something in our DNA and it's inherited from our parents or whatever (I sucked at bio), but why are there so many sized boobs? What forced us to adapt to have different sized breasts? Like most asians have small boobs right? And then you've got these say, hispanic girls, with nice sized C cups. Or like that occasional woman with natural double or triple D cups. And I don't mean natural as in they have a huge gut and even bigger boobs. I mean natural as in they just have big boobs. This probably (most likely, definitely,) makes me sound like an idiot, but what was the scientific point to big boobs? The only reason they're really there for is to feed our offspring right? So you really just need the mammary glands right? and even guys have those. And when you're pregnant your boobs get bigger anyway, so what's the point in big boobs? How do they aid our species' survival?

I realize lot's of people are probs judging me so hard from reading these posts, but I'm actually sincerely interested. Ugh. Maybe I'm just dumb. Or maybe I'm just not thinking. (That's basically the same thing though...)

Whatever. I'm going to try blogging everyday over the summer. I realize the chances of this happenning are very slim, but I will try either way.

HMPH.

Aight. Bye~

Music XIII and how it's ruining my life

Luhan and Xiumin are totally gay for each other and should just get together already god they're adorable I can't get enough of EXO and even though EXO-K is better when it comes to music XIUHAN IS THE SHIP OF LIFE!!! (Or Lumin... which ever you prefer).

So suddenly my music library is filled with a mix of American AND Japanese AND Korean music.

God help my soul.

Oh is it just me, or do you ever mix up the works "Q-tip" and "tooth pick"?? I do it on, like, a regular basis and I annoy myself to no end. :P

Also I'm glad I'm not the only one that thinks I'm a shallow white girl ~_~ I mean, if you think about it, take away the anime and japanese stuff.... I'm like every other stereotypical white girl on tumblr. Only I don't use tumblr. I use blogger. SAME DIFFERENCE!! XD

Ugh I need to stop. I just listened to like four korean songs in a row. HALP!!!

Tired XII and Anime IX and Endings V

Okay. No phone sucks.

It was my fault, I know, I wasn't giving a positive enough attitude and went to do my homework before I finished with the dishes, but still...

No phone sucks buns.

I can't stand this. I can't do homework on the run, can't use my five-consecutive-alarm system to wake up in the morning, can't read ebooks (and I was in the middle of a good one), can't check my schedule/family calendar without a computer (which I'm forced to leave at home... not that it does much without the internet), and can't watch anime. I can't contact my parents or my friends or anyone unless I'm in a building with an accessible phone or near a person with a phone they might let me use. Basically I'm a lonely island when I'm walking to different places in town, something I realized today. I lost access to all of my reminders for work, homework, blogging, anime, sophomore research project, picking up the boys etc. and I hate it.

I hate this so much I'm practically going insane.

I swear though, if someone asks me what I'm most afraid of right now, the answer will always be not getting my phone back. Not eating is in second place. That's how bad it's getting.

I'm mentally physically and emotionally exhausted, my sleep pattern is completely screwed over and I still have no idea how to give someone a positive attitude when I'm so fricking pissed at them. Seriously, if someone was as mad as I am at me, I'd take no attitude and robot speak instead of sass any day.

Try it sometime. Smiling uses less muscles then a frown, but it takes a shitload more effort for sure.

Tired XI and Anime IX

Okay so it's been a really really REALLY long time since I blogged and I feel totally and utterly .... Sad (for lack of a better word) about it. So first off I'm reaaaaaaaly sorry.

I'm also really tired (which is part of the reason I've been silent for so long) so I figured I'd give a status update. Actually I just want to give a status update cuz it looks easy and fun. Whatever.

So-- PROPOSALS ARE DONE!! Submitted. Finished. The pressure is off my chest for a few months (hopefully). Also, the spring animes haven't let me down yet. No game no life is still the best tho.

Also, my GPA went up a point!! (Yay me) I am no longer at risk of a B average.

~(^_^~)

And summer is coming. Another plus. However this means I have to clean out my entire closet (again) and sort through ALL my clothes (again) and go into the attic (again) to put my summer stuff in my closet.

There's also the matter of shorts in school. None of my shorts follow the dress code. They're all way to short. Well, not that short really. They usually reach to the base of my thumb (I think) but never to my fingertips. So mi madre won't let me wear them to school. Sigh.

I'm gonna havta wear jeans thru June by this point. (Ughhhhhhhhh)

BUT! I got a new swim suit so it all evens out in the end.

AND FRENCH IS STAYING!!!! They talked about it at the PFA (PTA? Idk) meeting and decided to keep such an awesome language after all. YAY PARENTS.

Aaaaaaaaand that's about all I can think of right now.

OH! English homework.... English homework....


TEN THINGS I SHOULD HAVE LEARNED BY NOW a list by Maya Kelly Y. Ghosh

Not to talk back to my parents.

How to control my facial expressions.

To eat at regular intervals so as to avoid random stomach rumbling.

To do my homework before I sleep (or watch anime).

To make an effort to hang out with my friends more often.

To make an effort to get out if the house more often.

To make an effort to get out of bed more often.

To make an effort.

To sleep at night.

To grow boobs.


AIGHT IM DONE BAIIII~~

VIVE LA REVOLUTION!

VIVE MADAME!

What?

Anyways, currently the principal has planned to phase out the French program, leaving my school with only two languages: Spanish and Latin.

This is ridiculous.

I mean REALLY???? Half the reason I decided against biotech and went to high tech was BECAUSE WE HAD FRENCH!! And besides, I love Madame. But she already just about stated that if she knows this isn't going to be a steady job for her, she'll start looking for a new one. I DON'T WANT A NEW FRENCH TEACHER! I mean, I seriously suck at languages. I spent ten years, TEN YEARS on spanish and learned NADA.

ただし! (Tadashi!)

With Madame... everything was different. I actually understood the material she gave us and began to learn a language. It was the vent of the century let me tell you. And now with them phasing French out and all, I might not get the luxury of learning from Madame till senior year!! I might not even get her next year!!!! I'd be heartbroken and dumb for the next few years and NO ONE WANTS THAT!!!!

So we decided to protest.

I mean it was so little. We all willingly put posters protesting against the phasing out of French on our lockers. It was within school rules and understandable and guess what HE did.

He tore them down.

Screw it all.

Love VI

I'm in a very bad mood right now and am currently havering some very conceited and hateful thoughts towards some very important people in my life. It's a shame. I started out today with such a good mood and ever since I got home I seem to have plummeted from my blissful high. Life sucks like that sometimes. Life's a bitch. 

I'd talk more, but I really am pissed. I can't even think to be funny. This is ridiculous. I'm way too call for the amount of hatred I feel welling up inside me. Hormones are weird. Teens are weird. Girls are weird. Life is weird. I'm weird. Sigh.

Well good night I guess. At least tomorrow's Friday.

Anime VIII

CLIFFHANGERS SUCK!!

I love them anyways :3

In case you're not watching it, please please PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE go and watch No Game No Life.

It is a masterpiece.

However, the one problem I'm having today is the CLIFFHANGER AT THE END OF EPISODE THREE!! I swear it's horrible. RIGHT WHEN THING WERE GETTING REALLY REALLY RLYRLYRLY GOOD------ it stopped. FMLFMLFMLFML!!!!!!

Sigh.

But, my god is it good. I'll add a link here --> http://kissanime.com/G/78760?l=http%3a%2f%2fkissanime.com%2fAnime%2fNo-Game-No-Life

Anyways, yea. That all. :)

Summer

So it's spring, huh?

Lucky for me, my allergies are less severe in the spring compared to the fall so I'm safe for now, but you really get like, a summer fever around this time of year, you know? I can hardly wait for summer now that it's starting to warm up outside. Imagine. Sleeping in till noon, dozing in the lazy summer sun, lemonade and the beach and watermelons? I can hardly wait.

But I have to sign up for some math camp.

I'm thinking I'll do Kumon, but I'm a little bit a lot pissed at the idea that my one real break every year is being squandered by school work. There's barely a point to it any more. Sigh. OH! And because I didn't get to fast start out of Algebra II and into Pre Calc, there's even more pressure coming from my extremely disappointed parents. I'm gonna sound really dumb, but seriously I CAN'T EVEN ANYMORE.

Also taking away my phone does not do much to stop me from being distracted. Neither does taking away my anime or manga. (Thanks for restricting access to any sites containing the word "anime" or whatever on my phone by the way. You ended up blocking a bunch of other sites to btdubs.) In fact, no matter what, I'm sure I'll be able to find a way to distract myself if the task at hand is too boring. If not anime/mana then books. If not reading then writing. If not writing then drawing. If not drawing then sleeping. If not sleeping then talking. If not talking then thinking. I WILL ALWAYS DO SOMETHING MORE FUN BECAUSE I CAN'T STAND BORING!!!

Sigh. I need a break.

TOO BAD SUMMER BREAK IS RUINED!

I think what I need is a day with the house to myself and no one telling me what to do, what to wear, what to eat, how to sit, how to talk, where to look, and why their way of thinking is correct.

Is that so much to ask??????

WATCH THEM 'CAUSE THEY'RE GOOD and Anime VII

In case anyone's interested, I highly recommend the following.

No Game No Life <-- spring 2K14 airs every Wednesday
http://kissanime.com/G/78760?l=http%3a%2f%2fkissanime.com%2fAnime%2fNo-Game-No-Life

Mekakucity Actors <-- spring 2014 airs every Saturday
http://kissanime.com/G/78760?l=http%3a%2f%2fkissanime.com%2fAnime%2fMekakucity-Actors

Black Bullet <-- spring 2K14 airs every Tuesday
http://kissanime.com/G/78760?l=http%3a%2f%2fkissanime.com%2fAnime%2fBlack-Bullet

ENJOY AND SORRY FOR BEING A SUCKY BLOGGER. (~_~'')

Oops

I missed a day.

Again.

I AM A HORRIBLE PERSON!!!!!

Anyways, so I started another anime and it's pretty cool but it's not all that amazing or anything so meh. It's called Nabari no ou. if you're in need of something to watch I suggest this. Also I have no new music which is sad but not really because I already got so many new songs so yeahhhhhh.

Basically life is boring and I'm not interesting and the life of me is blegh.

Also I would like to make a quick announcement.

I AM A TALENTLESS FREAK OF AN ASIAN WHO DOESN'T PLAY AN INSTRUMENT, WIN AT CHESS, GET STRAIGHT A'S, OR EATS DOG. MY SINCEREST APOLOGIES WORLD.

Today sucks. I hate school.

Tired X

Recently I realized that I've no longer been writing the thoughts in my head In their raw form. I've been cutting and pasting and covering up and embellishing certain parts of my thoughts with an audience in mind and posting the finished product here. It new. It's weird. This post will be my best effort to not give my best effort to write for an audience. This is a post for me. Please don't judge me. I'll try my best not to feel self conscious.

So sometimes I think I'm a really horrible person. Like right now. For ages and ages I've had this really pretty, really nice friend who I've been wanting to get closer to. To get to know better. But, you know, they have their friends and I have my friends and then we are friends but not as close. But then suddenly they start reaching out to me, almost trying to show they want to be better friends to and instead of being happy and blissful like any other teenager would be in this situation, I don't think of this as a dream come true.

I speculate as to whether or not they are reaching out to me so they can have me as their foil. Like those less pretty girls that really pretty, really mean girls tote around in chick flicks.

I'm horrible. Sometimes I just hate how horrible I am I want to throw up. But I would never throw up for something as petty as this for that is a waste of food and time that I just don't want to deal with.

And I think the saddest part about what u just said is that I stated that these types of issues are petty. It's like admitting to myself that I'm just some shallow teenage girl who cares about appearances and rankings and popularity etc. and maybe I am.

Maybe I'm just shallow.

Sigh. This is turning out to be such a depressing blog post but I don't really care. Oh well.

You know what I hate?? When the insides if your eyelids get itchy. You just keep blinking because scratching it is out of the question, but blinking doesn't have much friction due to all the eyeball juices keeping my eyes moisturized.

Moisturized is such a weird word doeeeeeeeeeeeeee. So is doee. So is so.

Sosiso.

Zozizo.

X-O-X-O.

Let's go--wait no.

Ah mo~ IKOU!

Bed time, deshou?

I'M IN A GOOD MOOD AGAIN!!

LOOK AT THIS VID. GO TO 3:27!!!

GYAAAH IM IN LOVE!! I LOVE JACK FROST!! I WANT TO BE ELSA!! GYAAAAAH

Sorry

I'm a sucky blogger huh. I've been so busy lately though. I FINALLY CLEANED OUT MY ROOM kind of. 

It looks a lot better anyways. :3

Also, I've been listenning to this one song on repeat all day for the past few days and I'm still not tired of it. I swear though, the first verse? Perfection.

Like SERIOUSLY?! It's been practically haunting me. Like look at this vvv I just keep wasting my free time doing all the wrong things, huh? XP

OH! And speaking of free time look at this one. I swear I've been making bubbles everywhere. In geometry I filled the whole back side of a page with them. Bartlett wasn't very happy though (~_~;;) 

OH OH OH!! Another good song I've been listening to very often lately is this one vvv

Okay nevermind. I'm not actually in that great of a mood so I'll end it here. I promise to be a better blogger tomorrow. I promise to stay true to my word. I promise not to break any promises. I promise to enjoy my spring break. I promise to not miss any homework due after spring break. I promise to be a good girl. Wait no. Take the last one back. Everything else still stands though. Gnite.

Music XII =_= and Anime VI

I apologize for the excessive music posts, but I really have nothing better to blog about. I seriously just downloaded ten songs and wasted a bunch of time that could have been used to clean my room. Like I'd actually get much done if I had cleaned my room, but that's besides the point.

I think I should sleep now.

I don't think I want to.

OH-- SO I'm already really far into it, but Hyouka is AMAZING!! I mean, I've been meaning to watch it, but never got around to it, but I finally did and now I'm addicted.

I ship Houtarou and Chitanda so hard it's ridiculous.

Well I will go back to my episode before going to bed.

Gnite~

Maya Problems

I just wrote a really great rant about a lot of awesome stuff and deleted the whole thing so now I'm super mega pissed but I'll just paraphrase my wonderful five paragraph essay for now.

What the hell is wrong with "gay" things and when did gay and cross dresser come to be synonymous? THAT MAKES NO SENSE!

Also, what right do you have to judge me and the. Try to force your judgment of me ONTO me?? You think I'm gay? Great. Go suck my --- BEEP BEEP BEEP. I could care less whether or not you're unsure of my sexual orientation. I'm not and that's all that matters.

Also, am I normal? No. Yes. Probably. What the heck is normal anyway? Depends on the person? Well the person is me so I say there is no normal. Just fifty shades of weird.

Also, if you want me to change my views, don't keep coming at me with the same "I'm right. I'm right. I'm right" attitude. That makes you boring. I hate boring. You will be ditched. But f you want to have a very interesting debate on these things with me be my guest. If I have free time I might not mind giving you some of my attention.

So basically, if I'm pissed don't bother me. Even if I'm joking and look perfectly composed, if my eyes aren't smiling a little, it's cause I'm not currently thinking in this dimension or I'm pissed as f***.

Thank you. Good night.

MY COMPUTER HATES ME!!

I now realize that I cannot blog from my phone on safari.

After the last two posts (which I truly though had been posted when I SAID POST!) I realized that mobile safari will never be as amazing as chrome on desktop, and after having to RESCHEDULE BOTH POSTS BEFORE POSTING THEM just now I decided to make a vow.

I HEREBY DECLARE TO NEVER HALF ASS MY BLOGGING BY TRYING TO POST WHILE LYING COMFY IN BED INSTEAD OF SITTING IN A CHAIR WITH MY LAPTOP ON!

It's okay if that didn't make sense, but if it did then YAY ME.

Aight. FOUR MORE OBJECTIVES!! BAI!!

Food

I realize that food is a large part of my life so for the first time in history (or so it feels) I will blog about my favorite topic.

Dinner.

I think I'm in love with dinner. I nearly never eat breakfast, and if I do it's just ramen or grits that's gone within minutes, and as for lunch... I tend to forget it at home and even on weekends I'm always doing something around lunch time so sometimes I just skip. In fact, on days that I'm not at school I don't ever keep track of time, so I've learned to just eat when I feel hungry even though the timing varies A LOT. (Disclaimer: This is a habit my dad abhors. Both of my parents are against my skipping meals and eating brunch and linner instead. Neither of them approve my strange eating habits.) HOWEVER! There is one meal that I eat on a regular basis and in regular amounts.

Dinner.

Every night around 10pm usually, sometimes later sometimes earlier depending on when my mom cooks and when I get home, I eat about two to three quarts of food. That's two big plates OR one plate and two bowls OR three bowls and a drink/snack OR a bunch of apples and clementines paired with whatever food I bring home from work OR.... Yeah you get the gist.

But tonight I had a feast.

One quart of white rice with a quart of Mapo Tofu and a quart of egg drop soup as well as a full quart of what I think was pork lo mien (I'm not sure if it was that or a mixed lo mien made from extras... whatever). SO basically, if you took all the food I just ate then mashed it up and turned it into a smoothie, I just consumed a gallons worth of chinese food smoothie.

Please take your time I you process this in awe.

Now add in the fact that I ate all of that within an hour and a half while using only one hand as I continued working on my unfinished bio objectives with the other.

Thank you for your time.

I will now try to settle my lurching stomach before going to bed. (~__~'')

The Problem With Being Female

Contrary to popular belief, the biggest problem with being a girl is NOT our monthly present from mother nature. It is in fact our natural tendency to over analyze everything. In fact, I'm only a little bit envious of males if only for their naturally simple minded thoughts.

You can take that as a compliment or insult. Up to you.

But really. It's absolutely amazing. Girls can spend up to hours, possibly days, trying to understand why a certain person didn't say "HI" to them that morning or smile at them at lunch or something else just as trivial, while guys won't even think about it. If asked they'll probably say something like "Oh they were probably tired," or "Maybe they didn't see me," or "Maybe their busy," or something just as plausible and obvious. It's truly admirable to some extent at least.

Well, going back on that, I'm not entirely sure that all males think in this way, but I can say for sure that almost every female in existence overanalyzes everything, so in comparison to female, males do think rather simply.

I'm not quite sure why I wrote this. I'm not quite sure if I'll post this. Yeah... No, I'll post this because nothing interesting happened today. Merp.

~Gnite...

Power VIII

You know something?

I think I'm too easily influenced.

Not by people. Lol obviously not. I've just been thinking... my emotions sway so easily. Like take today for instance. We went to go see one of my best friend's plays. It was the opening night for their school's performance of 42nd St and it was amazing. The sets were great, the costumes were amazing, and of course the acting was up to it's usual high standards for RBR, but afterwards, I couldn't help but feel a little....

Melancholy.

I felt wistful and weird and not like me at all. I couldn't help thinking, that could have been me. I used to act, and dance, and sing, and do sets, and did crew. I did everything. I loved shows. The stage. Lights. Applause. I lived for it for the longest time.

And then I just dropped it.

I don't even know what triggers these sudden changes in my mood. I was supposed to be happy for Ash for crying out loud!! I was supposed to give her a huge hug and congratulate her and smile. But I couldn't stop thinking about how much I missed the stage.

I don't even know at this point.

Sigh. Now I'm just tired. I hate talking about my feelings. But I need to get a new journal to write shtuff in so ima just vent here for today. >_<

Gnite~